perhaps it's better to know nothing. this isnt the first time, and i've never learned from my mistakes. it's really time for me to stop that bad habit of mine and (really) think before i say or did anything. awww, now i felt so bad, to cause such a midunderstanding. :( but i think i'm going to forget everything after a few weeks. i dont meant to be such heartless, but blame it on my brain kays. it just dont like to remember such things. i'm seriously sorry about that. SORRY.

enough of that. i'm going to start on my 3 months secret mission. (: not very secretive but still.. so 4sep2011, wait for me. hopefully, i managed to perserve by then. and... :') heeheeee.

my life at ge is going to end soon. :( and i'm already missing them on the second last day at work. boooo. but i really need a job of higher pay (without recruit express kop-ing my $$$) :( hopefully i passed the trial next week wor. ^^ then more money will roll in.


recently, i also get to know a bunch of cheery peeps which really brightens up my day! (: their belief in J really changed them alot i guess. and i'm so outdated to relate church with wooden benches, classic-dull songs and priest chanting, as in those traditional church you see in tv. only realised how outdated i am after my very virgin experience in church last week. xoxo. love the highhighhigh music, touching testimonials and the atmosphere. still, i cant pledge my commitment (yet). but me-athickskinwoman will still attend church. teehee.


rc commitments will gradually reduce in time to come. (Y) cause i knew my life would no longer evolve around rc ONLY. went for the world vision fammine camp interview for a facilitator. really pray hard that i do get in. c'mon call me babehhhh!!! cause i reallyreallyreally like their activities. and most importantly, starving ourselves to get a feel of those in poverty and hunger. (meaningful righty?) :') i'm so proud of myself, for having such amazing hands. sewing lots and lots of DIY stuff. hohoho. *salute to myself* but i'm super lazy!!! arghhh. didnt exercise at all, even though i sound so determined in the previous post. zomg.

send me some flowers, will you.

hard times. happiness wont last long, unless you made an effort to grab hold of it. i didnt, which results in sucky week!!! ): plenty of stress at work and r, unappreciated work, thoughts of giving up, awkward moments, itchy eyes, the feeling of no-true-friend again, guiltiness, quarrel with family, superslow phone, eating alot, fats accumulating, unpredictable moodswings, parents' nags, many pimples face, no job soon = no $$$, inflation, spending money without using my brain, getting lazier, manymany plans (but no capital), getting older, realise & see for myself the scheming minds at work, smrt trains moving very slowly and the list just go on and on. rawrrrrr! it's really time to sit down one day, and think of my aims & goals in life. there's nothing i reallyreallyreally wanna pursue in life currently. everyday, dragging myself to work, doing something that i didnt enjoy and living for the sake of living. i know this's life, almost everyone is going through this piece of shit now. come to think about it, i wont mind if the world is going to end in 2012. (i know i will regret this sentence in 2013) haizzzz, it will be over soon! happiness will eventually come back to my side and leave sooner or later. i'm going swimming soon, to drown all those stupid-demoralising-evil-nolife thoughts of mine.

Life is really getting better for me! (Y) mum and dad are fine now. i finally meet-up with yejing. and today, we'll be ton-ing at xiaoli house! more meet-ups are coming up with lao-beh and ganggg and S10 girls. also found a vintage camera (those with film kind) at home. so manymany pretty pee-tures can be taken. dad also got a new black car!!! hohoho. (: my pay also came at the right time (even though my pay is damn pathetic). and next ndp training is still far far away, which means i get to enjoy my saturdays! really need to pray hard, pray that all those good happenings will last long time. May god bless me. ^^

but i'm getting fatter. zomg!!! i'm eating alot, and i really mean ALOT!!! >:( life at ge is going to extend for another weel .siansiansian. ): i was also stuck in the train for the 4th time this year. can you imagine?! 4th time. ZZZ.. having blue-blacks all over. ( but i like it, seriously.) iamyvbncsm, bs. rawrrrrr. ):

okay, smth random now. (trust is just like an eraser, it'll get smaller and smaller after every mistake.) smrt really need to gain back the trust of those passengers. everyone was pissed off as the faulty train had made them late for like more than an hour! then there was this announcement today, on the train, that says "train will be delayed due to the track fault" Then everyone in the train was like giving the pissed face, and i even heard AGAIN?! so smrt, please do smth alright, and gain back the reputation that you guys have establish in the past.

treeeeeee outing (:

i had joy and fun with great company. (: and most importantly, i saw my very first sunset! although it's just that few minutes, it's really very beautiful. volleyball, dodgeball and captainball makes me feel healthy once again. (and old - was panting like hell after each game) ): but those exercise went into the drain when we had kentucky for dinner. boooo.

met up with jiaxin for lunch yesterday. it's great to see her again after so loong. next up will be taitai session luh. together with lao beh. xoxo.

-let nature take it course. what meant to be, will be.

Lazy Dates. I don’t need you to take me to extravagant restaurants to prove your interest in me, or make you spend money on bouquets of flowers to tell me you like me, no. It’s not like that for me. I just want your company. We could be in house clothes, watching oldies, getting fat on oily junk food. We could be ourselves in these dates.

those were some meaningful (at least to me) pee-tures and notes when i was stalking people blogs. :X hehhehs. meangwhile, i was addicted to secret garden and some other movies. seriously, we need to admit: korean guys are so cute. ^^ and all thanks to FUNSHION, i get to watch these cute guys. xoxo. so quickly go download it if you havent, cause there's plenty of shows upthere.

my contract at GE is going to end soon. (Y)(Y)(Y) it's not that i hate the job, but it's really damn boring. :/ i just not suitable for admin jobs. sitting all day long just make my butt bigger. >:( so before i find another job, i really (x100000) want to go overseas. :D to play, eat and shop. can someone please organise one?

all i want is t go back t the good old days where i'm still yet so commited, still going out and have fun with different groups of people like amost everyday. (: and to myj, which i havent talk t for a veryveryvery long time. i know it's tough for you, but meanwhile stay strong and takecare. i guess i know what you really want and i'll pray for youuu (promised). love and miss you, always.

p.s i really want t walk in the rain with you. (:

Finally managed to find some time to blog. it's gonna be a super long post, so be prepared. (gahhh, as if someone will ever read this) but before 2010 come to an end, just wanna spill out some of my thoughts hereeeee. so here it goes:

To the group of CURRY lovers, i miss you guys!!! :( i was glad and relieve to see you all grow during such a short period of time. i was kind of touched when i saw you guys making the small little effort to change and learn. pardon me for the nags and shoutings as the sight of some dashing across the roads for answers just worries me. but what matters was that we all enjoyed the camp! :) hope you guys brought something back with you (e.g. friendship, experience, memories, new cheers and actions. (i can't forget the excited faces of you all when we said that there will be no more running on day 4)

To the group of uncles and aunties (and a small little girl :X), i miss you guys (more)!!! :D thanks for the guidance throughout the camp. going through thick and thins together during the camp. (dramatic huh?) not to forget the joy and laughter that we shared. (iron hair arh iron hair, stoning there arh stoning there) haha. and ganging up to tease the small little girl. look forward to working with you all soon, hopefully. meet-up soon (jan) alrighty, for chitchat and cheering session. hohohoho.

To the 4 sexy babes. i know it sounds cliche to say how much i love you guys, how nice for me to know you and stuff like this. but i really meant every single words. the joy and laughter we shared, the hot topics that we never failed to gossip and the pretty peektures that we had taken. lets cherish the strong bonds that was forged over the past one year++. thanks god for giving me the chance to meet the four lovely ladies that had and will continue to leave a great impact in my life. :) meet-up more often alright. cant wait for the flea market, seriously.

To my dearest mr, mrs and ms CHUAs. i really feel loved in the family. the surprise gifts and actions touched me to the max. due to some miscommunications and childishness, we often went into cold war. but i know everything will be fine soon. the support and encouragement your gave aided me through the tough times in 2010. i can only pray to god to keep the CHUA family healthy and safe by my side forever. lets go for a family trip or chalet together, my treat! (but your pay first, will return when i earned $$$) hohoho. :)

2010 can be considered a great year for me, except for A's huh. i think i've grew to become more matured and sensible, hopefully. i've made more friends and learn new stuffs. to those who had offered me the opportunity to strive, i really appreciate that. without your, i will still be the ignorant little girl who cares about nothing. thankyou to each and everyone who was present in my life, regardless of good or bad.